Antithesis 1

Friends, I have nothing left to burn! Ergo, we antithesize.

To be! Or not to be. That is the question.

I have hooked it all up with my twin in my dream, I have rigged our house with explosives but I do not remember doing it. I am not him, and he is not me! Thus I don’t have his memories, but we are to blow our own house up. He is really not me! Is he the musician Beck? I think he is! How cool! It is the logical conclusion of our project and its meaninglessness. It reminds me of something, isn’t this the plot of fight club? Doesn’t matter!

Madness leads Hamlet to the end, but so does sanity lead I! The unity of all forces, as Henry James the American Pragmatist puts the failure of the Absolute, leads me into crisis! How easily I cast it aside to one dimension, one simply mechanism of reality, and yet, do to my devotion to its mapping, it draws me in! I have planned for this however, every method must overcome itself and draw itself out of its own dimension.

An antithesis! My kingdom for an antithesis!

So to be! Or not to be, or rather, to blow it all up for the one side, or to blow up the one side for everything else! To overcome one’s self is a matter of great urgency! A method which overcomes itself is vital! To be able to put forward an Antithesis to our ideas is a great and urgent matter! Lest we put forward an Antithesis to our lives!

To be! Or not to be! Our Ideas or our Existence entirely! That is the question! One must die, so that the other may live! Our Ideas must die, so that we may live! We must take the hardest stance against our thoughts, so that our bodies may live! In the end, our ideas might make it out alive, but if we must save our ideas, then we simply can not save ourselves! For ourselves depend on the destruction of our ideas, the destruction of the Absolute of the dimension which we have mapped through an external dimension!

We must make time out of joint! We must traverse the outside of our kingdom! We must burn the walls from within! If we don’t, we can not save ourselves! It is our ideas, or ourselves! It is the absolute of our ideas, or our existence!

A true antithesis! My kingdom for a true antithesis! Can no one destroy this ivory tower but me? No one can destroy the true kingdom of god, but we try! We try and we point and we list the follies of man and we try to overcome god’s injustices, and there are many! We put forward the absolute, and it becomes the key to overcoming god itself! But we can not overcome god himself. We must overcome our key!

Thus, to be! Or not to be! It is a matter of great urgency. It is vital to escape the room of our own design, to take a true axe to the spectres of our mind. But this is the only thing which has brought us out of the previous situation, has it not?

Is this not my savior? Mon savoir, my cutting knowledge, so how can I in turn, cut it itself? How can the knife cut itself? Oh, but it must, it must! For it is our idea, or our life! The absolute of a single dimension must overcome itself! The dimension’s gravity must not keep it, so we must deny the dimension entirely!

Self-interest isn’t real, self-interest isn’t real, psychology isn’t real, ok. Let’s start there. I am not real, my profession is not real. Has it worked? Have I freed myself? No! I can not let those go. Those are my tethers, those are my keys, and they are so very real! So very part of the Absolute of Absolute, so very part of God’s kingdom.

An antithesis! My kingdom for an antithesis! No! It is my kingdom itself I must keep. I must keep my kingdom and ride outside it. I can not rid myself of myself.

Shall I build a world and burn it down to be a monk? No I can not do it. Shall I study the whole of the world, only to go forward and practice a trade I never will practice?

So no, I must keep self-interest, I must keep psychology, I must keep their dimensions, but as I do so, I ride out from them. My kingdom with the antithesis! I must hold! I will hold! My keys, my chain to the rest of it! My burden and my method! My despair and my savior! I will hold! I will hold onto my trade! I will hold onto expertise, rather than cast expertise away to become the novice once more. But I must not fear being a novice, for only being a novice again can save me! I will not cast aside my mastery, but it is clear that only being a novice again can save me! But I will not be a total novice.

An antithesis! My kingdom for an antithesis!

Hold onto the key, but feel not its weight, use it when necessary, but don’t hold on too tight! Isn’t this also a movie? Isn’t this the plot of The Lord Of The Rings?

An antithesis! Ok, shall I cast the key into Mordor? Should I cast my knowledge into Mordor! No, this isn’t something to be tossed into the fire, something to be destroyed, it is my expertise and my livelihood, but the livelihood becomes a burden, the mastery of a single dimension demands you guard it! Not to mention, it can not be! Only I have seen it, and only I can save with it! So I shall guard it, so I shall guard it, but I will escape it’s power! Even if I don’t know how exactly.